The older I get, the harder it is for me to sleep in. This morning I slept longer than usual and was up around 8:30am where I gladly poured a cup of coffee and sat outside on the deck with my dad. I am a big coffee person and like it all from black, to flavored creamer, to iced etc etc. Anything coffee/tea related and I am a fan. I enjoy getting up and having slower mornings. I wanted to take more time this morning to enjoy the outdoors but if we were to be out in the sun today, the morning was the time to do it. I woke my sister up and we had breakfast together. I had greek yogurt with granola, peanut butter toast (I was beginning to go through peanut butter withdrawal), and half a banana. My sister made a nice fresh fruit salad and I quote, “If the food looks pretty, it will definitely taste pretty!” I do admit I am a fan of artistic food and think presentation is an important quality. We hurried up and finished getting ready to be out the door. Today we explored Jamestown which was founded in 1607. They are always in the process of archaeological digs and to me it is all fascinating. I don’t always know and remember a lot about history, but I love to learn about it and be immersed in it. We explored the Fort area and talked with a lot of the historians and archaeologists. It is hard to imagine traveling across the vast ocean to a new and foreign land. I am drawn to the history of Jamestown as well because of my Native American heritage. The Powhatan people are not in my lineage but I like to learn about all different tribes. By this time of the day it was getting too hot and humid to walk around outside much so we packed up and went to lunch at an American Bistro. Lunch was a little hectic for me today because nothing on the menu sounded great right off the bat and I was pressured to make a decision before I was really ready. Does anyone else with a disordered history have trouble making decisions when it comes to restaurants? Usually I don’t have too much of an issue but today it was definitely a struggle. I really like to take my time, but since we were with company I felt like I shouldn’t make the whole table wait on me. I settled on a meatball sandwich. It was alright but not satisfying. I was really trying to eat intuitively too and I feel like I still was distracted and ended up too full. I was in a pretty sour mood after that because I want nothing of disordered behaviors to be around during vacation. I knew a lot of self care would help out though so we returned to our friend’s house, took a short nap, and then went to the rec center where I ran. When in a crummy mood, I don’t feel like exercising at all, but I know that I will always feel one hundred percent better afterwards and guess what – I did! My sister and I came back and went to the pool for an hour before dinner. One of the highlights of my day was sitting on the deck before dinner enjoying a nice glass of Cabernet and having some alone time. The birds were all out and about and I enjoyed everything from cardinals to woodpeckers to hummingbirds. Just sitting outside and soaking up all the sounds helped me get back into the practice of mindfulness after a more stressful few hours. I suggest everyone just sit outside somewhere for a half hour and interact with nature. It is a very nice opportunity to reset and unwind. For dinner our hosts made an amazing tortellini salad with shrimp, prosciutto, peas, roasted red pepper, and squash. Fresh and delicious. And I was a lot more mindfully present and able to enjoy my food. Dessert, which I couldn’t pass up, was a lemon pound cake with strawberries and vanilla ice cream on top. It was a nice ending to the day and by now I have forgotten all about the lunch struggles. I am happy that I am able to let the things that used to tie me down just pass by. Instead of thriving off of disorder, I took some time for self care and climbed back on the horse so to speak. I suggest if you are struggling to try and turn your day around right when it begins to slide in a negative direction. I would usually allow the whole day to be ruined and I would think that tomorrow would be a fresh start. No, make your next hour your fresh start because it gets a lot easier to break a cycle if you cut it off as it begins. A lot of days were wasted telling myself tomorrow is a new day. Although it wasn’t the best day I really can’t complain because I was able to explore and learn about the history of my country. I wonder what tomorrow will bring?!
2:45am. That is when my alarm clock blared to life. Reluctantly I stumbled out of bed to two dogs eyeing me warily wondering what the hell I was doing up in the middle of the night. Although we were on the way to the airport to go on a nice vacation there wasn’t an ounce of excitement in me. I am not a fan of flying and I am always overly anxious. I also hate eating before flying but my family was nice enough to get me half a bagel while I was going through the long security line. We boarded and I spent the first flight listening to music and trying my hardest to sleep although I haven’t been calm enough to sleep on a plane since I can remember. I was surprised that my level of anxiety did decrease and I was actually able to enjoy myself by the time we reached St. Louis. I was even able to read and stop to enjoy the scenery at 30,000ft on the following flight to North Carolina.
We then found our way to the rental car (I am traveling the first part of this trip with my dad, sister, and stepmom) and by then we were all starving! Half a bagel doesn’t cut it for breakfast and trust me I eat a lot more when I’m not in fear of boarding a large metal object that soars through the air! We settled on Chick-fil-a where I ordered my favorite chicken nuggets. If you have followed some of my earlier posts I almost had another chicken nugget moment where instead of 8 they gave me 12! I was able to laugh it off and share some with my sister and be happy we had extra. On the road to Williamsburg, Virginia I was able to sleep for a couple hours. We arrived at our friends and I was greeted with a beautiful Sauvignon blanc wine. Much needed after a stressful day of travel. We just finished up an amazing meal of brocolli chicken cheese casserole and fruit salad. It was a very nice homemade meal after a day of travel! Now we are hanging around watching the Nationals game on TV and will probably turn in pretty early. After all the travel I am very happy to be here and the excitement is finally starting to sink in. I used to get frustrated when I didn’t know the plans but this time around I am just going with the flow and enjoying all the small moments.